Graduate seeking guidance

[legallysg]

Hello anybody who is reading this,

I so wish I found this community earlier, it is so great to see everybody's inspiring journeys and motivations!

For myself, I am wondering if i should join the journey as well or if it's just not right for me.

My situation
I am a recent LLB graduate. I did not get a good degree and I did not get good A Level results. I really thought i could redeem myself after A Levels by smashing it out the park with my degree, but I did not. In fact I didn't even get the bare minimum expected of law graduates.

I already know I do not have a chance in this life to join a global, reputable law firm. For the past 2 months, I thought I had a chance at more regional, high street firms but I'm starting to think that I don't now. To make up for my awful grades, I know very well that I should have an abundance of experience, interpersonal skills and commercial awareness. However I cannot get a legal-related position to save my life. I'm trying to get my foot in the door but it is just not happening, it's my grades that always let me down or the fact that I wasted my time during my degree not applying to anything to do with Law. I know i am so out of line and undisciplined, how could I let it get so out of control...I would redo so many things. I'm trying not to drown in the past and stay resilient, I'm still applying everywhere to be a legal assistant/ paralegal/ legal admin and I'm volunteering on the side at different organisations. It's probably far from enough but I NEED something to talk about during applications.

My questions
I would love for somebody to just give it to me straight. These are the questions burning in my mind:

• The SQE. Is it worth self-funding even though I have not a single legal role lined up or done? (I really do not want to do the LLM, I know I'll do badly balancing SQE prep & essays)
• I am still very interested in open days from top firms. I'm not hoping to join them of course, but I'm just curious about what open days consist of. Can you tell me more about them & do I still apply?
• Realistically what am I supposed to focus on/ prioritize right now? I get no sleep at night because I'm constantly thinking about the 'right' thing to do to not waste any more time. Do i volunteer, do i get a job in anything and forget about Law temporarily, do I apply for vacation schemes & internships?
• I have never seen somebody get bad A Level grades, a bad degree and a bad level of legal experience. Unfortunately I have all 3. Please be brutally honest what are my chances?

As you can see, i am a very lost person right now! Maybe I am not meant for Law, if i was not dedicated before what will make me dedicated now. I spent my whole degree avoiding that I'm studying Law and made nothing of it, I achieved literally nothing. However why is a tiny part of me so hooked on not wasting my degree, seeing it through by gathering different skills, until a day where some firm out there will accept me. My experience is so tragically unique but I really hope this finds somebody. I will genuinely appreciate any words of advice that come my way.

Finally if you happen to be pre-graduation & you're reading this, please do not waste away these years. Put yourself out there for everything, be eager to learn, invest in yourself and your skillset by staying busy and dedicated. Your future self will thank you for it