how i feel about CC tbh
But I'm so sorry that happened

I really wish I could give you a hug rn 🫂 I totally get your frustration and heartbreak!! I myself got rejected by CC first stage this year after doing very much what you have done (went to almost every single one of their events this year and also got work experience lol). I can't do much for you right now other than offer a few words of wisdom that I received from my time crying over my CC PFO (haha).
I understand that you're frustrated and tired, and that it seems like your hard work has gone to waste, but often times, things that we feel strongly about aren't meant to be the end goal, instead they might be in our lives to serve as a stepping stone. Now that you've worked so hard and have improved yourself because of your love for the firm, you are now a much stronger candidate and person with much more experience. Maybe it's not time yet, and this love that is pushing you to greater heights is preparing you for something more, or the right time and moment. I am firm believer that things happen for a reason in life, and while we would all love success at the first or second attempt, sometimes these failures are there to teach us something more, or prepare us for the future. Please don't beat yourself up! You worked really hard and are super passionate, and I'm really proud of you for that! I promise that in a few years you will look back and realise that all was worth it 💗🤞
But definitely, allow yourself to vent, to feel frustrated, to even cry, but remember, how you react and move on is the most important thing! Maybe this time next year you will be an even stronger candidate who will end up getting to where you are supposed to be. Anyways, don't rule yourself out so early yet - you haven't received true indication that you didn't reach the benchmark! Either way, if it helps, let's both do our best in reapplying to our favourite firms next year! (Moving laterally is also an idea!)🫂 I really believe that things that are meant for us at will come to us at the right moment, and I trust it will to you too! Hang in there soldier 💗