Firstly, I am so sorry 😢 I understand the feeling of being abandoned by your dream firm...it's quite the disappointment and betrayal. Let yourself feel what you need to, cry, shout, scream, do whatever you need to overcome the emotions. Treat yourself to a well-deserved break or pamper day. I tend to snack and watch my favourite comfort cartoons haha.
Don't put too much pressure on yourself to rebound immediately. Pushing through without acknowledging your feelings can lead to burnout in the long run. I just want to say that the firm really lost out on a star! Getting to the vac scheme is an AMAZING accomplishment, and I have no doubt you really deserved that TC. It's just such a pity it's so competitive these days. But this experience
will make you stronger, more resilient, and offer you an advantage going forward!
The fact you have ACs coming up is testimony in itself to how amazing you are, so don't you go doubting yourself! I am a big believer that if we've tried our best, and things still don't work out, then that means life has something better in store for us. You never know, you may end up loving it at another place after these ACs! I understand feeling demotivated, but to put it in dating terminology lol: don't let one bad fish (moment or result) stop you or ruin your chances with other fish out there 🎣!
I am your biggest fangirl ever (iykyk) and I really wish success for you! I know it's really difficult right now, but I trust you will be able to push through and come out the other side an absolute legend. I cannot wait for the day you become a trainee at a firm you like (the same or if not more), you better save me a coffee chat!!! (

lol haha jk)
🫂🫂🫂 offering you lots of hugs and comfort! take care of yourself and power forward with confidence 💗