Hi, I completely understand how you feel. I have broken down in tears over all of these applications, stayed in bed for a day and a half, and just felt very isolated. I was so worried, as while I got a Vac Scheme in 2023 but didn't convert it, I didn't receive anything in 2024, just a failed AC. A week after that staying in bed incident, I got an interview with
BCLP. I didn't get the scheme, but I persevered. I am now waiting to hear back from an interview and have two ACs coming up.
So, you CAN do this. I've always thought of life as a wheel of fortune - someone is always at the top, someone is always getting crushed underneath, but the wheel never stops moving. If you hang on, you WILL get to the top - I hope we all will.
My DMs are open if you want any support.