If it's any consolation, I can completely relate to this. I'm going through a very similar series of emotions at the moment. I don't have a VS under my belt, but I understand how this could exacerbate negative feelings.Ah this process is getting too much now. Really considering if I am just wasting my time and will never succeed. Constant rejections just coming in and I am not sure what more I can do. I feel like I constantly see one type of person succeed in this process and that will never be me. As someone from an underrepresented background I also feel like the vac scheme I was unable to convert was my only chance and I blew it. Can't even get to an AC since. I feel like a loser when UNIVERSITY students are securing top TCs and I am here as a grad begging firms cycle after cycle. Probably just not good enough either and need a reality check, haha.
As somebody else on this forum very kindly said to me the other day (when I was crashing out), I'm certain that you're a much stronger candidate than it might seem at the moment. Don't lose hope!
