Please do not be hard on yourself and I found that my motivation when writing apps really ebbed and flowed so I would say this is totally normal with the current situation and without it. Everyone is responding to this differently and there is no 'right' or 'wrong' way. If you want to spend this time doing online courses and learning new skills then great, if you want to spend it reading books all day and soaking up the sun (if you have a private garden/balcony) then that too is great. It really doesn't matter so long as you are doing everything you need to for your health and happiness during this period. Maybe listen to your mind and take a break from apps, instead of everyday feeling like you have to do a bit and spending time being unproductive, give yourself a break. Maybe if you take a few days to not think about them you will feel a bit invigorated next week and ready to give an application a go?This is going to be slightly off-topic, but... does anybody else find it very hard to focus on applications right now?
Personally, even though I work from home there's not much time that I can use to write applications (I am taking a cheeky coffee break right now) - not only I am actually loaded at work (okay, that I am grateful for - so many of my friends got laid off/furloughed that I really appreciate having a steady job) but also whenever I have some spare time, I cannot bring myself to be productive, TC application wise. It especially sucks since in a few months time it will be 2 years since I graduated from university, so I feel the pressure of getting a TC but equally whenever I try to type answers to app questions, I end up staring blankly at my laptop screen. I do a lot of yoga, I watch The Office (again), I call my grandparents every day, I actually cook a lot - but I physically can't sit down and write applications.
I really cannot find motivation to get on the TC application process.
But if in some (distant) future I will be asked during the interview to say how I spent quarantine, I will be able to proudly say "I learned to do splits again and I also baked some banana bread".
I was two years graduated in the summer of 2019 and it has been this 2019/2020 cycle I got my TC so do not pressure yourself in that regard either. i truly believe things happen just as and when they are meant to
Also congrats on your flexibility! I have been trying yoga for the first time and I am abysmal but we must all start somewhere I guess!!