Really need some advice/motivation... I feel like I am never going to get a training contract and I have squandered my only chances. I managed to get a VS last year out of the only application I did (which I did not convert) and have been completely unable to replicate that success. I've had 6 ACs this year and not managed to get a VS out of any of them. Some I messed up and some were fine but I just wasn't good enough. I now can't get out of my head and feel like I will mess every AC up now that I've done it a few times. I feel like there's no way I can get one and I do not think my mental health can take doing another cycle and doing one won't help because the more I fail, the more likely I will continue to do so. Training contracts and how I don't think I'll get one is all I can think about all day everyday. Does anyone have any success stories where they've gone backwards before going forwards and finally succeeding? It seems like the motivational stories where people have got a VS after loads of ACs don't really calm me because that means they improved while I am going backwards and that is the problem.
If I were you, I would have a backup plan for a non-legal career.
Over the years, what I have realised is that quite often, you are not rejected for "you are not capable of doing the job well."
So, it is not solely your fault.
Most of these mechanisms are simply "justifications" for allocating limited resources, such as spots for training contracts.
Think of it the other way:
If you were rejected for the reason that "we do not think you are capable of performing the duties of this role," you would not struggle at all.
What you would likely do is simply go back, improve your skills and knowledge, and apply for other opportunities.
But right now, you might feel like you are banging your head against the wall.
If you have gone through interviews for experienced hires, you would have heard stories where the line manager explains with solid, sound justification as to why they have found a better, more suitable candidate.
Sometimes, it is because the chosen candidate brings additional skills or domain knowledge to the table.
Sorry if I am being blunt and direct, but I think it is better to get the message across clearly.
You can keep applying, but having a backup plan is essential.