I know how you feel. My mum died in November 2023 and I was in the middle of preparing for my applications which I had work so hard all year to do. I was grieving, planning a funeral, having to travel and still trying to stay on top of attending legal events. Some days I wanted to do nothing but I was pushing myself to get up because my mum was ALWAYS pushing me to do my best and I just want to make her and my little sister so proud. I ended up getting my first job working for a huge international luxury fashion brand shortly after but my biggest advice would be to try your best. It's okay to just *breathe* and to take your time with things. You can only try your best and once you have done that, you have done all that you can. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk
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