Hey everyone!
By way of background, I graduated last summer and am currently working full-time as a paralegal. This is my third cycle and I must have done about 40 or so applications across that time, with around 4 ACs. Unfortunately, despite putting in plenty of effort and energy into the process, I'm still yet to land a VS or TC and unless I somehow pass a VI that I bombed, this cycle will be another failure.
I have a housemate who I lived with last year, who didn't apply in second year or final year of uni because she wanted to focus on studies/extracurriculars. This year, she's done one application to a firm she really liked and she phoned me on Friday to say that she'd got the VS with them. Obviously, I'm thrilled for her but that's tinged with jealousy. The fact she's done 1 application and successfully managed to obtain a VS, while I've done 40 applications or so across 3 years and have spent hours and hours writing applications, researching, preparing for ACs and so forth just seems brutally unfair. I know it's corporate law and it isn't supposed to be fair, but it's incredibly demotivating and makes me feel that the process is easy, and I'm just not good enough.
She's very personable and intelligent, so I understand why a firm would want her, but our grades/experiences etc weren't overly dissimilar. I just don't get how someone can manage that when I'm likely to be in my fourth cycle next year, still hoping that just one firm will give me a chance.
